Archive for February, 2014

The Invisible Woman

Posted: February 19, 2014 in Parenting

So here’s my announcement that I’m going to flake out on you.

You need me to show up somewhere? I might not make it. Need me to do something? I probably will try and fail.

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Why?

A few weeks ago I found out JJ hadn’t gained weight. Worse, I found out he’d lost weight. That started a flurry of figuring out what the heck went wrong.

Breastfeeding is important to me.

No one is guilting me into it.

I don’t have a problem with formula.

I want to breastfeed. I *want* to do this and I’m willing to put in the work to make it work. Right now, I have to work at it. I’m not producing enough and he’s not taking in enough so there’s supplementation and pumping and lots of tools that have to be cleaned as well as doctors visits and lactation visits and the whole nine yards.

I know some people won’t understand why this is important. All I’ll say is that sometimes the hard road is worth going.

So if I don’t pick up the phone. If I don’t text back in time. If I cancel last minute…

I’m working on feeding my baby.

And that’s where you’ll find me.